Monday, April 5, 2010

I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink

Everything feels worse when one is sleep deprived, and this is where I am right now. Day 5 of chemo was the low point for me in this cycle, but day 6 is not feeling much better. My insides are making battle with themselves - don't know who is winning, but there is a lot of action going on. I just cannot find any refreshing sleep - even the sleeping pills don't seem to be able to knock me out, so I have stopped taking them and am hoping that fatigue will kick start a more regular sleep pattern. Right now I seem to be sliding into an hour or so of very light sleep at intervals during the night, and that is just not good enough. Not sleeping also means that my metabolism doesn't slow down, so I am ravenous overnight, and that works to keep me awake.

The sun is shining, and it may be our last beautiful day for this week - thunderstorms and cooling trends are on the way, so I will try to get out for a short walk at some point today. I am looking forward to week 2!

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Anne,
We are often thinking of you. Chemo sure isn't fun. But it feels so good when it's over! Hope it doesn't get any worse.
Melanie will be here in July and would really like to see you.
Doug

Shariza said...

lots of love from Team Kanda (Shariza, Arul, Arysha and Amalya) Our prayers and thoughts always with you as you undertake this journey. Great to hear you have awesome support all round.Send my love to JP !

mariamostar said...

Dear Anne,

As someone from the actual region where orangutans live, I have to say, that you are indeed of an endangered species of wonderful people... whether you look like one, hmmmm... that will require some scratching. I am thinking of you, JP and all of your family and wishing you quality sleep every chance you get.

And... you'd better come see some orangutans once chemo's done - I'll take you myself.

Love and hugs,
Maria

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